Sometimes you see something that describes yourself and you think, “Wow, spot on. I never saw it so succinctly written, but this is it. This is me.”
I almost feel exposed, but also relieved and validated at the same time. I am a happy, perky, friendly, upbeat person. I get excited about a lot of little things (and big things, too.) I laugh a lot and heartily. I think sometimes I have been mistaken for clueless, naive, “toxically” positive, sheltered, just “lucky”. Sometimes I almost feel like I need to be apologetic about my happy nature and yet, I have certainly had my fair share of heartaches, much like anyone else who has reached their fifties.
My nature is to experience everything fully and deeply. So when I am experiencing “happy” it’s BIG. It’s BRIGHT and SHINY. It stands out. But I take everything to heart. I mull over everything, the good and the bad – again and again. I tend to carry it all with me and sometimes this adds a lot of weight to my soul.
Does this resonate with any of you? Do you feel misunderstood a lot of the time? I hope this added a little understanding to at least one of you, today, like it did for me. It’s an interesting fact that the sun weighs 330,000 times the weight of the earth. So clearly, even carrying around sunshine can be a heavy load.
Are you passing on love or are you passing on pain? Heal your pain and pass on love.
Here is the question of the day from 3000 Questions About Me:
2435. What song do you know ALL the words to? (Ummm, “Happy Birthday.”)
Great post, Kelly. Love the fun-fact about the sun weighing 330,000 times more than the earth. Carrying sunshine is a heavy load! I also feel like people think I’m naive, toxically positive, sheltered, lucky, etc. Heck, sometimes I even feel like I am. But I know me. I count on me to find the sunshine. My son and I were talking about being happy the other day. Most things in his life don’t bring him buckets of happiness. His happiness level is generally at a 5 or below (on a scale of 0-10). My setpoint is usually around a 7 or 8, and it doesn’t take much to kick me up a notch or two or three. I’m not sure a person is born with a high or low level–I think it’s cultivated. Anyway. Enjoy your day. I know you will. 🙂
“I count on me to find the sunshine.” Great line, Gail!! 🙂 Kindred spirits.
Kelly,
You are so good! You described me.
( I took a picture of the quote!)
That’s me, my mom called me a deep thinker even before I knew what that meant!
When I was called, Polly Anna…had to look that up…
I feel things so deeply, sometimes too deeply!
Mulling things over…that’s me.
Often times, I cannot make a decision about something, because the dust has not settled around it in my mind. I have not fully thought of it enough to feel comfortable with making a decision about it.
Maybe that makes sense to you? And it is not logical things that I’m trying to resolve, it’s emotional. As if, once the dust settles, then I need to think of my emotions about it, can I handle it, or could I handle it better this way, or that way, with this restriction or that, to make it more acceptable to me. Sometimes when something happens, (a disagreement with my brothers, maybe) I hold back reaction and emotion, because I need to sit with it! And sometimes i lose the opportunity to express my truest feelings because the event may be long gone….
Definitely a lot of weight to my soul!
You really uncovered something about my personality that I’ve never quite tapped into, but I understand it now!
Thank you!
PS. This part of my personality, also has lead me to saying things to people, that are sometimes awkward, but I know once I say it, they get it and are appreciative. It’s the over thinking…
PSS. I’m also of the age now, that I can honestly think, I am who I am,
God made this way for a reason and I just gotta go with it and try to be the best version of me! It may not be great, but it’s what He gave me for the journey!
~You’re the master at touching my deep thoughts!
And I am grateful!
Oh Joan! This response is so beautiful! That’s what I love about the blog. I put out my thoughts and so often I am validated and then I learn more because you my readers, thoughtfully expand my understanding. Thank you!!!<3