Good morning, friends and readers. Welcome to the best day of the week!! My regular readers know that I typically keep it light and fun on Fridays. On Fridays, I list three favorite things, or songs, or websites or books, or life hacks that make my life more interesting and engaging. You, my readers, really like Fridays, at the blog. Interestingly, usually the most popular days on the blog are on Fridays, and on Sundays (the day that I devote to poetry. You never knew that one of your favorite things is poetry, did you? I caught you. ;)) So this tells me that you, my readers, are my favorite kind of people, a delicious mix of fun and frivolous, yet deep and soulful. It’s good to be well-rounded. Bravo!
As many of you know, we suffered another setback with my son’s epilepsy, this week. His new medications aren’t working out, which is deeply disappointing because the side effects of these medications were much more tolerable, than his last medications. We coaxed our baby to come home for the weekend, so I had the best sleep of my week last night, knowing that he was home safe with me, in my safely feathered nest. (I love sleep. It’s definitely one of my favorites.) My youngest son (the son with epilepsy) is obviously one of my favorite people in the world, and it is not just because he is my son. It is also because my son is funny, and smart, and ethical – almost to a fault; he is insightfully (and sometimes brutally) truthful – like no other person I have ever met, and so, so resilient. I admire him greatly. I love him beyond reason.
I’m drained, friends. These setbacks with epilepsy are hard on our family. These disappointments bring all of our fears and uncertainties, back up to the surface. People who live with serious disorders, know better than anyone, just how fragile life is, and how quickly it can be taken. After experiencing a major health setback, and once you calm down from the anxiety, and you let your shoulders drop, you can sometimes find the gift that comes from these painful realities of living with a disease, or a disability that can take your life, at any moment. It brings clarity and beauty and gratefulness for every simple moment of living a life. I can’t tell you how much my heart sang last night, to listen to my husband and my son yell, in unison, at the football game last night, as they have done so many times in the past. I savored that sound like it came from Heaven above. Because it did. Heaven is all around us, if we open up our eyes and connect our watchful eyes to our hearts.
I’m sorry to get so deep on a Friday. You readers don’t like that, I know. You might be thinking, “Lighten up, lady!”, but it’s my blog, and I’ll cry if I want to . . . .
Please always remember that when you are considering your favorite things in life, it’s never really “the thing”. It’s always the feeling that you get from “the thing.” If you think of one of your favorite things, or people, or places right now, you will get those wonderful feelings that those things give to you, seeping into your consciousness right away. Try it. Do it often. Your favorites are really your favorite feelings, and you are capable of dosing yourself with your favorite feelings regularly. They are just a thought away. Stay aware. That’s the only way to live.
Happy weekend, my favorite readers of my favorite blog! See you tomorrow.
Are you passing on love or are you passing on pain? Heal your pain and pass on love.
I wholeheartedly agree with your entire post, Kelly. From the feeling of having your babies safe under your roof to being aware of the fragility of life to understanding that it’s the way something makes you FEEL not the thing itself… and that feeling is always accessible. Take care, Kelly. Happy Friday.
Thank you, Gail. My favorite thing about my blog and its readers, are the reminders that we are not alone in our feelings and experiences, ever.
You are an inspiration for all who read—both carriers of heavy burdens and those who know no recognizable discomforts in life! Thank you for allowing Wendy to share this with me.
Hi Lenora! So good to hear from you! You’ve always been an inspiration to me through the stories Wendy shares! Thank you for reading!
Kelly,
Glad to hear that your son is home with you and enjoying time with you and your husband.
You are so right about savoring the moments.
I wish you all well and I will continue to pray for you, your precious son, and your family.
Take good care!
Thank you, Joan. I feel the love!
Stay strong, mama. You already know that there is a divine purpose in everything and at some point, the lesson in your son’s epilepsy will be revealed. Maybe the lesson is for him; maybe it’s for you; maybe it’s for the whole family. Sometimes the lessons are things we don’t want to learn, and that sucks. But maybe you will find sweetness and peace, faith and confidence as a result of this trial. Keeping your clan in my prayers and hoping that you soon find the right combination of meds to keep your boy seizure-free. Hugs to you.
Thank you, Kelly. There’s always hidden blessings and lessons in everything, if we look for them, right?